Monday, June 07, 2010

Now the piece has a proper name..............

It is to be called "My Sad Song". (Because hope is gone)

We were given the worst possible news last Tuesday and for a few days I didn't even pick up this piece of work. Although my brother is two years younger than me, he's my big brother, he's always been there. Thankfully, I knew before he did. I visited a day earlier and saw the doctor. When he telephoned to tell me after getting his biopsy results, he said "Never mind" - he's still looking after me. I'm so grateful that I was prepared.


(Click on photo for bigger image)

So, all the hope that I stitched into the top left hand corner of this piece is gone. There are other little bits of hope scattered around it too. We have been on such a rollercoaster ride. The treatment my brother received in the first few weeks was callous and incompetent and time after time we were told the worst, then given hope, then had it snatched away again. Now he has a new consultant and his care and treatment have improved immeasurably. So, first has to come acceptance and then later, much later I hope, grief.

(The condition that my brother has is called CUP(cancer of unknown primary). 3-4 percent of cancer sufferers present with this problem. Much work needs to be done by the medical profession on the speed of diagnosis and the way that this disease is presented to patients and their loved ones.)

8 comments:

shirley said...

This is such sad news for you...I do hope that things improve, and that your brother is made a lot more comfortable from the ravages of this terrible disease and treatments. Thank goodness he now has a better consultant.

Will be thinking of you,

paddysdaughter said...

I'm sorry to hear that - have been thinking of you.

Denise Felton said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news. *surrounding you with loving, supportive vibrations* I'm especially touched that you captured your emotions in stitch. I hope you won't mind that I shared a link to your post on my blog.

Hugs,
Denise
http://needlework.craftgossip.com

Jules said...

I am so very sorry to hear your sad news. Thinking of you.

LindyLou said...

I am reading your post two weeks after my brother's death, my not very old brother's sudden death. I tell you this not to show lack of respect for what you are going through, but rather in a spirit of "We have been in the same place".
Three of my four brothers have now died when they were in the prime of life. We are told that these years are the prime of life, but for some they are the end of life. I wish you and your brother strength and the memories of times together that may help you keep in mind that happiness and purpose are part of life. In sorrow-filled times it is hard to remember anything good, I think, but please try to remember good things and keep faith that those did exist and will exist.
I wish I could express what I feel better than this. My heart goes out to you, your brother, and all those who hold you dear.

kay susan said...

Thank you for your support everyone, it means a lot.

Emmy said...

no words for this love to you and your loved ones

kay susan said...

Thank you Emmy.